Everything about my life is undecided. There is nothing I can do to change it. I cant ever say what I want and when I do doesn't make a difference nothing changes everything is the same. The pain I feel never goes away, its a continuous throb in my head, in my heart and in my soul. I find myself on the open road, peaceful terrain, rocky mountains, and beside peaceful bubbling streams. The run cleans my soul... however damned it may be